Monday, March 29, 2010

Oh My Life...

My life right now is:

Today I woke up with yet another sad thought in my head and in my heart... the one in my head was that my parents came home last night... yes I was glad that I didnt have to be home a lone anymore, and yes I did miss having them around, but theres always that feeling of still wanting the house to yourself because you can just do whatever you want and wear whatever you want and not have to worry about other people seeing or hearing you...
The sad thought was that today was my grammies birthday and she wasnt here to celebrate it. My grampie actually had a little birthday party for her, but we couldnt go because it was on the weekend and my parents were still away. It just made me think that I hope my grampie is handling it well. My dad called him today but I didnt want to ask how it went because my dad is an emotional person and I didnt want to see him cry because thats where I get it from and I know that I wouldve cried if he did.

Also today I was thinking about how much I love the fact that my parents buy me pretty things when they are away. My mom came into my room this morning and was carrying a really pretty coach purse. I love it!!!
Also I was thinking about how much I love my friends!!!! I CANNOT wait until this summer when I get to see Cortney for the first time in 2.5 years! It is going to be a sweet reunion!!
I was also thinking about Laura and how much I miss hanging out with her and how Im excited to get to hang out with her at Sarahs wedding this weekend! It shall be a blast.
Yesterday i had the opportunity to play around with my FAVORITE person in the ENTIRE world, and that was my niece lyla! It had been a little while since I last saw her and was sooo excited to see her at church. She looked super cute, as always, and was just funny. She kept hopping up and down and in the words of Laura, "it looks like shes having a verticle siezure" haha while hopping around she would just say "daddy" and when she had my camera she would hold it up to her face and say "cheese". Now I tried really hard to get her to say Nessa, but daddy and cheese was all I got... well I got that and one of her doggy kisses. Yes that is correct, my brother has taught her how to give doggy kisses. I cannot complain about it because that was something I did on a regular basis growing up. There were pictures taken, but I have been too tired to upload any since the year 2010 began, but I promise there will be some posted soon on face book.
Week 1 is complete for overnights, but there are plenty more where that came from. My schedule this week is WAY out of wack thats for sure....
Monday: 3pm-12am
Tuesday: 12am-9am(wednesday)
Wednesday: 9:30pm-2am (thursday)
Saturday 10:3oam-6pm

Seriously, I dont think Pat was paying much attention to sleeping patterns thats for sure.
This is why Im awake right now, because I want to stay up late so I can sleep all day tomorrow so that I wont be too tired for my midnight shift tomorrow.
But I still must be going because I have a phone call to make to my dear friend Eric who I havent talked to in a very long time and cant wait to hear from him!!
Therefore I must bid you all farewell and good night!

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Dear Stranger...

I know that when the sun is shinning it generally means that it is indeed day time. However, for me it is night time.
So I would like to ask of you one simple favor
Did you NOT get the hint the first time you knocked and I DIDNT answer??
I was trying to sleep, and because of you I only got a few hours of sleep before I had to go back to work.
So please, dont do it again because today I am REALLY tired.
Thank you kindly

Wednesday, March 24, 2010


Working overnights has really taken a lot out of me, but I LOVE doing them. Although, this week started out a little horribly... Why, do you ask? Well let me tell you...
Sunday I woke up at 9am after only a few hours of sleep and started to get ready for church. Then I came home and tried to sleep for a bit... well that didnt happen, so by 10pm I started to gather my things so that I could catch the 10:30pm bus to work. Well I decided it would be a good idea to actually check the sunday bus schedule, and well I came to find that I MISSED THE BUS!!! I was not impressed because there was a good chance that the 11pm bus wouldnt get me to the terminal in time to catch the connecting bus, which would be the LAST bus leaving to the mall that night. So I was terrified that I wouldnt get to work, and lately when I stress about things I get really sick... no I dont throw up, but I almost do. I dont like to get sick so I talk myself out of doing it. Thats why its been almost 8 years since I last threw up... but thats beside the point....
Sooo, work that night started off with Nikki(overnight manager), Leah, Taylor, Kyla, Julien, Sarah, Nathan, Brian, and myself. Well, Leah went home sick, then shortly after so did Julien. About an hour after they left I was putting together the new boys denim wall, and that meant putting in new shelves which are about 35lbs or so... I thought they were about 15lbs, but I was wrong. As I was putting a shelf up about 6.5ft It got stuck and I tried to fix it and it FELL ON MY FOOT! Yeah It hurt a lot... my foot is now blue!
Nikki was like "Ok, walk it off, No one else can go home tonight." It hurt all night...
I later said "watch one of us trip and get a concussion and wont be able to leave because we have so much to do."
Well... at about 4:30am didnt Kyla trip and dislocate her shoulder! The head construction guy Josh drove her to the hospital. We all felt sooo bad for her. Also we have been short handed all week because people keep getting sick and because Kylas out. We've done really well every night except last night. We got a little behind, but tonight we get to make up for that.

I'm sure you are all wondering (well maybe not all because Im really not sure if anyone reads this or not) what the surprise is...
Well, no one in my family knows...
Yes, its true. Ive decided it was time to go back.
Hopefully I get into the program I want...
What is this program and school Ive applied to??
NSCC Radio & Television Arts.
Its a 2 year program, and what I want to specialize in is Radio Performance & Studio Production.
Keep your fingers crossed!!!!

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Tender Mercies

Today is sunday. Normally sundays seem like a day where I can just be laid back and relaxed, but today was just not that way.
I havent been sleeping the best because of my work schedule, and so I woke up rather early and have to work tonight at midnight until 9am tomorrow.
I've been trying to take a nap but i just cant seem to be able to close my eyes long enough to fall asleep.
Also, this morning I woke up and all I could think about was my grammie and how much I miss her, and how much I wish she and I could've gotten to see each other more, and get to know each other better.
Today I was waiting outside of pres. moses's office because I needed to get my temple reccommend renewed and david schow came and sat down beside me. (he's a counselor in the branch presidency.)
He then proceeded to tell me how much he and his wife cared about the people in the branch but that they really cared about me and how they both were in the ysa prgram for a long time before they met each other and how they understand how sometimes it seems like the grass may be greener on the other side. but he then told me how if I ever wanted to talk or just hang out that I can call them or even go hang out at their house and not to feel awkward about it. then he said something that brought tears to his eyes and later to mine when he left... he said "Vanessa, I want you to know that you are not alone."
Although I didnt think there was anything wrong or that I needed to hear something so simple, I was wrong. I NEEDED to hear that.
Pres. Moses and I talked about that when I was in his office and of course he and I both got emotional.
Today was just an all around weird emotional day, but a day that I needed.
Today, Brother David Schow was MY tender mercy.
After these moments, Jessica (david's wife) told me how she wanted to hook me up with her brother who's at BYU: Provo. it was funny. she told me to creep him on facebook, and well I did! hahaha she wants him to come visit her here, and she also said that she wished I would be in calgary this summer, and well I told her how I would be!! so thats pretty cool. she also said that after she told ben to ask me/take me out that she realized it was a bad match and that she thinks me and her brother zach would get along great.
So like I said before... today was a weird day, but a great day. a day I am grateful for.

Saturday, March 20, 2010


Since becoming one of the supervisors at work, i've come to realize that the nicname it was dubbed while working in edmonton "Old Slavery" is a PERFECT fit.
There never seems to be a day when i'm off. Mostly because if i'm not at work, i'm dreaming about it when I sleep... NOT FUN!
We are under going renovations right now and the last 2 nights i've done overnight shifts; one of which was a 12.5 hour shift! It was insane, but also one of the fastest shifts i've ever had.
Next week I work SUN-THURS 12am-9am.
The best part is that I can wear whatever I want because the store is never opened when i'm there!!
Sleep patterns are rather out of wack right now, and right now its techinacally night time for me.

Question of the day:
I DO!!!
It was a bit of an adventure to find it this morning, but alas, michelle and I found it!

Mine, however, is the collector's edition that is in a tin case and comes with my very own Edward figurine! I was pretty excited for that!!

What else am I excited for??
JUNE 30TH!!!


So, I officially have been offered my EFY contracts for both weeks, and I've been in debate about doing it for a little while now.
Do I love EFY? YES
Is it fun and awesome? YES
I just dont know what to do about it.
Cortney will be home for the summer so I will get to see her for the first time in about 2.5 years so thats awesome. I guess i'm just nervous about going to efy when I know that I might not know anyone there this year.
Last year I was lucky and my dearest friend Laura went as well, so I had her there to hang with and stuff... now she will not be there this year.
I guess I will wait and see how I feel in a few days because I need to make a decision.
Well, its off to bed for me now so I will talk to you later!

Saturday, March 6, 2010

I Miss YOU!

Today I woke and all I could think about was YOU!
I miss you a lot today.
There are times when I'm ok with everything, But then there are times when all I want to do is have you back.
You are my favorite!
I know I shouldnt pick favorites, but I did.
I love you!!!

Grammie, I miss you & love you. I know you are in a better place and you arent in pain anymore, but I am a selfish person sometimes and wish you were still alive.
Grampie, I hope that you are doing OK without her! I love you both!

Thursday, March 4, 2010


I thought that i would be able to stay away, and well for a while there I actually did.
Why did I decided to come back on here?
Im not entirely sure.
I guess its because I was looking over some of my EFY things and came across a song I re-wrote for someone there, and it made me think that I miss writing.
So here I am, back in the blogging sphere.
Heres a brief update to how things have been:
- ben left & isn't coming back (surprise surprise. I liked him of course he wasnt coming back.)
- my phone, my NEW phone, that I got in december has now broken for the THIRD time! yes thats right, it has broken 3 times! I am not impressed.
- I've been working like crazy because of renovations, and well I'm kinda tired of it... NEW JOB PLEASE!
- my parents are going on vacay again soon... GIRLS NIGHT PLEASE!!!
- I cant wait for the summer to get started, BUT would like to skip over my whole turning 23 in may part ok?..ok!
- I've become obsessed with TWO things... well 1 thing & 1 person...




yes, yes I KNOW he is american, but I LOVE HIM!!

thats all...