Sunday, April 14, 2013

2.5 Weeks

To all those out there who are in long distance relationships, or who have been in them I commend you!! Dey is away for 2.5 weeks and I'm going crazy. He has only been gone for a week and I don't know how people have handled being in actual long distance relationships. He is only on vacation, an open ended vacation that is, and I am having the hardest time with him being so far away. If we were in the same province and I just couldn't see him that would be fine, but the fact that he is in Toronto makes it worse. They always says "you want what you cant have." Right now I cant have him and it sucks. We have talked multiple times a day and have even skyped as well and this has helped a lot. I know I sound like one of those stupid girls whose world only revolves around their boy, and I try not to be like that. I have still hung out with my friends this past week, and I'm sure that I will still be hanging with them this week as well, but I still miss my boy... can ya blame me???
Looks like I might be doing some shopping this week to keep myself busy! I already got my hair done, but now I need more clothes! We are vastly coming up on a new season and I need more clothes. So shopping world, you better watch out because I miss my boy and I have money in my account.... deathly combo!

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

"Go The Distance"

I thought that I would keep with the Lyric theme from the last blog post. "Go The Distance" is from Hercules, and it is one of my favorite Disney songs, but I also feel as if it relates to me and where my head and heart have been this past week and a half. I have felt like I needed to go the distance but I wasn't sure if I would be able to make it.
My relationship all of a sudden hit a wall, and things just kept getting worse with every passing second and it dawned on me that maybe we didn't have what it takes to go the distance. I didn't want to end things but there came a point where I thought that maybe I needed to walk away in order to make things better and to just clear my head. But there was something amidst all the indecision that told me to just stick it out, and I am glad that I did.
I met up with him on Friday and at first I didn't want to because we didn't start the morning on a positive note. But when we sat in his car and drove with the smallest of small talk things slowly started to ease up and we slipped back into our "normal" selves. We went to the mall to meet up with a contact of his and had lunch and he was nice and bought me an ice cream from marble slab. He got an invite to a BBQ at his friends house and we went. I am always nervous meeting his friends because I never know what to expect. OH MY GOSH! These people were hilarious and I felt so at ease and felt like I belonged there, like we had known each other before. We got a long so well and we just hit it off and we were very much a like personality wise. After we left the BBQ we met up with people I work with to go to the Comedy Cave because my friend Michelle had free tickets. It was so funny and I thoroughly enjoyed myself.
Saturday's I normally go to the office with Dey but when I woke up I had the worst migraine I have had since I was a little kid when I used to get them all the time. I was in so much pain that I was shaking and even water made me want to throw up. Dey was so worried about me that we didn't go to the office and I seriously slept until about 5pm. I woke up feeling so much better than earlier and I was more than happy to go out to the movies with the special boy who was attentive to my needs as a sick little girl. We went to the new GI JOE movie and what I can say is that it was better than the first one, but it wasn't as good as I would have hoped, and also there weren't enough shirtless men hahaha what can I say I love me some shirtless hot men, I mean what girl doesn't!? hahaha
On Sunday we went to church, we went to Brentwood ward for sacrament and then we went to the Spanish ward for sacrament as well because someone that Dey knows is going on his mission and it was his farewell. Now in the Spanish ward everything is in Spanish and I love listening to the people speak. I had the option to use the headphones that they provide for visitors to hear things in English, but I love listening to the way they express themselves. I did however luck out because the guy who was going on his mission spoke in English!
After church we decided to hang out and watch a movie before we went to dinner at Michelles. Dinner was at 6 and of course we both fell asleep only to wake up to a few texts from Laura and it was now 6. I don't think I have ever gotten up so fast as I did right then.
Dinner was hilarious. Laura made us take these bunny pictures. Michelle tried to sneak corn into my potatoes, I caught on to her though haha.
On a side note, Sunday was my dads birthday and I facetimed them and my family got to meet Dey. Lyla was there and I thought she was hilarious. I miss that kid so much!
Now Monday, this was the day that I seriously fell more in love than I had been before.
I was at work and I get a text from Dey asking me what I had planned for the evening and I told him that I needed to clean my room and do laundry but maybe I wouldn't do my laundry and that I had to clean my bunny's cage and clean up my little eating area. Then all of a sudden I get a text from Laura asking why Dey was at the house and that Jeremy had let him in... then she told me the washing machine was going.
I get home and walk into my room knowing full well that he is still at the house and see that my room is now clean, my laundry is done and folded, and then I looked over and saw flowers, candy and movies along with a "love" letter. Seriously that was way more than I expected to have come home to. I was so happy and then just when I didn't think that things could get better I get told that we are going to dinner. My night was seriously amazing. I couldn't have asked for anything better than this. I was taken by surprise with this and I appreciated it more than I can ever express.
Deys willingness to do something like this for me has proven that not only do I have, but we have what it takes to go the distance. I was touched so deeply, and I am so happy to be with him even when things aren't the best I know that its all worth it and things will work out.