Monday, February 25, 2013

Work in Progress

Life has been good to me over these past few months and I am happy for that.
My relationship is going good... well its going better than good, its amazing. Dont get me wrong we have had a few bumps in the road along the way but I am accepting of them because together we have been able to work through our problems and discuss things and "fix" the issue(s). I love the growth I have accomplished from this. I have seriously changed over these past few months, and these changes have been for the best.
Sunday I was able to face my fears and face some challenges I have been placed with over the past couple of years and I have been able to start working towards what I want the most; The Temple.
I havent had a Temple recommend in about 2 years and I am excited to get it back. Its going to take some time, and there are some challeges that come with this, but I am so excited about getting back to where I want and need to be.
My bishop has given me a few challengs for the next couple of months; Praying morning and night, reading my scriptures daily, and fasting every Sunday. Now these things may not seem like challenges to some, but they sure are ones for me.
These are a work in progress for me.
I guess its time to get to work!

Monday, February 11, 2013

The Best Things...

All my life I have never felt like I was worth having someone who wanted me back because I have never had that before. Never had I ever been told to my face that I was beautiful. But all of sudden I became worth it to someone. I was worth loving. This has made me so happy. Life is great, and I thank God for giving something that I never thought I would ever deserve.

Tuesday, February 5, 2013


I have always been the girl who has never been able to express herself very well. I tend to hide them away and never let anyone in to see them. This has caused a lot of issues with me emotionally where I have seriously not been able to get up out of bed. I have a fear of judgment and rejection and this in return has caused me to close off so many aspects of my life to people because Im scared of what may happen.
Normally Im not willing to let people in and see my emotions, but here I am so happy that I cant keep them in all the time. Im sure people are hating me and the fact that Im happy all the time, but honestly I think its about time that Im this happy. Ive been closed off and unhappy far too much in my life and its about time that things change.
Saturday night I was out with the boy, and yes he is a big part of my happiness, and I seriously was shaking like a leaf. I have known for a little while, but I wasnt sure how I would open myself up to this, and I needed clarification on a few things to help make it easier for me to do. Then I decided "its now or never! no point in hiding now."
This is when things exploded because I dropped the BOMB! This is something I didnt think I would ever do, and definitely not do it first, but I did. Im sure so many people are probably thinking that Im crazy but quite frankly I dont care. None of them are in this relationship. Its just me and him and honestly I wouldnt change anything at all.
Saturday night/early Sunday morning is when everything changed and I finally took down my last wall I was hiding behind. This is the moment when I realized that life from here on out wont ever be the same, and this is something I am ok with!

Big explosive things...