Im pretty sure those Coldplay lyrics explain it all right about now. I never went into this thinking that things would be easy, and people who do are living in a dream world. Good things arent supposed to be easy. Good things require work and sometimes work really means fighting through the problems.
Today I am running on less than 4 hours of sleep because things right now arent easy. I am left in limbo not sure which direction I am going to be going.
Ive had emotional "Issues" for as long as I can remember and sometimes they are really good and sometimes not so much. As of late things have been great and my emotions have been nothing but good. Then some where between Wednesday and Thursday things just shifted. I cannot explain why this happens to me or what causes it, but it just happens. This is something people dont understand unless they have gone through it. This is something I have worked really hard on and when Im told Im not working on it I feel like a failure. This is my flaw and some people cant handle that, and right now Im not sure if this is something that can be dealt with by others.
Nobody said that things would come easily and right now Im in a hard and difficult place with almost every aspect of my life. I am doing my best, but I guess some times my best isnt good enough or its not what people think it should be.
So this is me, an emotional wreck for no reason with all my imperfections, am I worth the fight?