Thursday, April 5, 2012

Re- Vamp!

ok! So im sitting at work right now... its not that busy so i thought i would take the time to write a little something.
2012 is the year to which i will re-vamp almost everything.. well maybe re-vamp isnt the right word but there is so much that i want to do this year, and well i have already started the process of the changes i wanted to undergo to make this year an unforgetable one.
so my list went as follows:
1. Get a new phone!
2.Cut off all my hair because its been long for what seems like forever now
3.Go back to brown to see if i like it better
4.Get a new Job
5.Get a car
6.Get my very own computer
7.Get a bunny!!!
8.Re Do my blog/maintain a consitent updating pattern
9.Be happy!
10.Travel some place ive never been before (preferably some place hot!)

So, I have accomplished 1-3 thus far and well as of right now im pretty pleased with myself.
But as far as my hair goes, i do like it brown but right now its just getting boring, so this weekend i am cutting it shorter and going back to blond! it should be interesting. this is going to be the shortest ive ever had my hair, but im excited for the change.

So in keeping with my whole changes theme, the link below is for TuPac's video changes. Some times im a little ghetto, but hey i like the song!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o8Y9-JlSRXw

Have a good weekend and Happy Easter!

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Ready for a long one???

Oh Gosh where on earth do i begin... that is something i am not sure of.
i wish i could just upload a million pictures, because i havent uploaded a single one since moving here... not even on facebook!!! shocking i know! but that is because i dont own a computer that i can call mine... that is on the list of things to accomplish in the year 2012. but that list is something that i will get to later on...
So let me just see what i can do here to recall everything that has happened in the last ohhh 8 months now...
Ok!!! July i moved here to calgary... which is something that i briefly talked about in my last post... ohhh that is also another story that i will have to touch base on.
So the rest of july wasn't that eventful seeing that i moved out here pretty much at the end of the month... so there wasnt much to say other than the fact i slept on my fouton in the living room for a while haha yes the living room (dont worry that has since changed!)
August came and of course like the little addict i am i went to EFY... it was ok. Again another shocking comment coming from me seeing how much i love efy, but the thing is, this year i just about had a enough and at the end of week 2 i broke up with efy! yes that is correct, i ended things. I actually have decided that i am done with doing efy even though i technically could still do 1 more year, i just dont want to.
towards the end of August is when life started to actually pick up i guess... well i guess thats just when i was actually able to start having a life in a way... not that my life is any where near exciting, but hey its my life and well its finally starting!
So august is when i met a boy... Now i'm sure you are all thinking, finally! haha well if only it were that easy. lets just say, because it was me who liked a boy obviously he wasnt a nice guy. well after all was said and done, things did not turn out the way i wanted them to, and me being who i am, was left crying... yes i cry a lot we all know this haha
september came and went with not a whole lot going on. i pretty much spent the entire month trying convince my friend kayla to move from regina out here. i also worked a lot as well... old navy didnt take long until they made me their slave!! even though work sucked i was still falling more in love with calgary than i already was, and enjoying the fact that i was no longer on the east coast... no offence to the east coast, but this place is better!
during the time i was trying to convince kayla to move out here i did a great job and she did in fact move here! i was more than excited to see her and have her live out here... i adore that little girl! she is grand!
At the end of september i did something i always wanted to do but never thought i would actually do it.... I GOT A PASSPORT AND WENT TO UTAH! yes, i vanessa, traveled in a car with both laura and kayla to utah for conference! my heart was full of joy and happiness!!! it was so amazing! the conference center itself just blew my mind and filled me with such peace.
while in utah i was able to see the sights and shop and visit with some people that i knew... but there was one in particular that i was more than happy about seeing... haha yes that person was a boy! surprise surprise! first off before i say anything about this particular boy, there was another that i thought i would try to see while i was there, and some of you may know who i mean when i say Austin Hart! well, after years of random texting after his mission in halifax, where we met and i fell madly in like with the guy, i decided to send this boy a text and let him know i was in utah and see if he wanted to get together. there had been countless days where i would dream about how our reunion would go, and every time i dreamt it up, i always left him wishing he had come back for me but now i wasnt going to give him the chance... well lets just say that our encounter did not go as i had always dreamed it would. it went as follows (via text)
Me: Hey! hows it going?
Him: good! how are you?
Me: Doing good just in utah for the next few days actually.
Him: thats cool. what are your plans while you're here?
Me: I came for conference and am just touring around.
Him: Sounds fun. I would say lets meet up for lunch or something but i dont think my wife would appreciate that!...
the rest of conversation really doesnt matter because well HE HAS A WIFE!!! i was shocked! he was the one person i actually never saw getting married until he was well into his 30's. I was blown away. I cant even explain to you the shock that came over me. how dare he get married before me!! (thats generally my thought for anyone i know who gets married before me, no offence)
well after that shocking news i made plans with another person that i knew in utah, who also was a boy, the one i mentioned being excited to see... James Baker.. or as some may remember him Elder Baker.
we have kept in contact over the last few years since he served his mission in halifax (yes there is a pattern here... me and missionaries... i think i have a problem)well i had informed him that i would be in utah and since we had always talked about hanging out if i ever came to town, i thought that it would be a good thing seeing that i was in fact in town.
that night laura and kayla both had their double date planned and i had plans with baker... now laura being the gem that she is lent me her car so i could drive and see him... before i even left the house and the whole time i was driving i was praying like a mad woman that nothing would happen and that i wouldnt crash her car... seeing that i am still alive today my prayers were answered!! yay for me!
so i went to hang out with baker at about 730pm... when i arrived back at the place i was staying it was about 730am... i did the walk of shame to the house i was staying at, and the door was actually locked and they had to open it to let me in... not my finest moment... but that night was actually quite funny because i met up with him at BYU and we decided to go out for ice cream. after we sat and caught up on everything he wanted to show me around the campus a bit so we went on a little tour. after going on campus we decided to take a little drive... he took me to the Y look out!!! no nothing happened there but it was funny because we for sure saw a lot of people hooking up, and i knew thats what he was trying to get at but there was no way i would allow myself to be a cliche. the best part was that when we went back to his place one of his roommates came home who was on a date. baker asked him how the date went and what they did on this date, and his date went as followed:
First Stop: Ice Cream
Second Stop: Tour of BYU campus
Third Stop: Look Out

the only difference was that i made it back to their place and this chick didnt. but its good to know if you go on a date with someone from that house then you know what to expect.
well baker and i just sat up and talked all night and had fun hanging out. no i did not kiss him even though he wanted to, i stood my ground and said no... i regret saying no now looking back on it hahaha
well thats pretty much how october started, and by mid october it was settled that we were moving out of our house at the end of the month and we couldnt be happier about it.
well, november came and we moved into our new house with Kayla. It made my heart happy knowing that myself, laura and kayla would have a grand ol time living together. the house is perfect and i love it so much!
December meant it was christmas time and well neither myself or laura were going back home for it so we decided to have an east coast holiday complete with michelle! considering it was just the 3 of us our tree was surrounded with presents!! i havent had a christmas tree that full since i was probably 10 years old and thats for a family of 5. i felt blessed over the holidays.
I got to see a good friend of mine as well right after the new year and that made my heart so happy. he is my best friend so it was great!
So remember that guy from the summer?? well for some reason i let him resurface along with his brother... not quite sure why, but it happened. He and his brother were hanging out one night at our place with myself and kayla and well things just got a little crazy i guess. i let him kiss me again, and well i remembered then why i hated kissing him before even though the first time i liked him.. this time i was just bored and lonely, and he was there so i thought why not... well NEVER AGAIN! then about 2 days later we were hanging out at their place and this time his brother kissed me! like for reals!!! hes not only the better looking one of the two but he is also the better kisser. i had always wanted to kiss him so i was totally all for it... now even though he was the better kisser of the 2 thats not saying much! no offence to him, but i have had some pretty decent kisses in my day and well he was just... ok, nothing special. I have come to learn that i like consistent kisses... not like being kissed constantly, but the familiarity of it. like always being able to kiss the same guy because you like it and you know what to expect and its just nice... now how often to get the consistent side of things??? not very often, but when i do it just melts my heart!!!
so after January came February... this month has been my favorite yet most hated month yet. I surprised my family and went home for about a week. it was great!!!
I called my parents thursday night and casually talked about their weekend plans to see if my surprise plan would actually work. I flew over night and rented a car so that i would have some mode of transportation and not have to worry about driving my mother to and from work... anyway, friday morning when i got into town at 545am i went and picked up my car and drove to my friend megans house to see her and to waste time. after catching up with her i went to my moms work. She works on the third floor and i went up the stairs and slowly rounded the corner... now remember, the last time my mom saw me my hair was way long and way blond. now it was a lot shorter and natural color. when i slowly rounded the corner my mom looked up and looked away, then looked back up and then her jaw just dropped! her words were "what are you doing here??? how did you get here?? we just talked to you last night!?" i explained to her that i had the ticket booked for a while but i didnt want to let anyone know because surprising people is more fun. i also explained to her the concept of air planes and how they do in fact travel across the country overnight.. who would have thunk it!?
after visiting with mother dearest i went to the mall to kill time before i would see my dad because he still didnt know that i was in town. i went to old navy to visit some people for a little while, which was was just great!! talking and catching up with them just made my heart so happy. i had missed everyone so much, especially because the store i worked at here was run by an big butt head!!! (im trying to be nice about it) well, the best part of my surprises was surprising my dad!!! i love that man. i miss him all the time and i just think hes great! well, i went home to my house in eastern passage and i rang the doorbell. I waited for my dad to open the door. my back was to him so he couldnt see me in the windows as he came down the stairs. when he opened the door it took him a moment to realize that it was in fact me who was standing there. when he did realize that it was me he started to giggle like a little kid. it melted my heart (i say that a lot because it happens a lot). I gave him a big hug and then he proceeded to say "what are you doing here??? how did you get here?? we just talked to you last night!?" ... seriously does no one in NS realize that planes do in fact run overnight!? So my dad ever so kindly invited me in to sit down and chat (even if he didnt invite me in i was going in anyway!) after which i took a nap for about an hour or so. then i started getting ready for the evening because i had plans with some old friends of mine who i used to work with. I also wanted to go see my brother who still didnt know i was coming... oh i forgot to say that when i got to the house and went down to my old room i came to realize that my bed was no longer there, but that it infact had been replaced with toddler size DORA bed!! so i was destined for the couch! ... ok, back to my brother. I drove over to his house and from outside i took a picture of his car and sent it to him. his reponse was, "are you outside my house right now?" and i told him to look out his door. he came out of his apartment with the cutest child ever and came running to the door... when he asked lyla who i was she goes "i dont know?" that broke my heart a little, but again it was ok because i did look different from the last time she saw me, so it was all good. i still love her. the next day josh actually had lyla talking to julia and told her to tell mommy who came to see her and lyla goes "nessa came, but its a new nessa" haha that girl just melts my heart!!
so back to friday night, i went out with some of my old friends, and i actually convinced jake to come out as well... for those of you who dont know or dont remember who jake is, he was my driving instructor who i was totally head over heals for! He was a hoot to hang out with and im glad that i got to see him because well i've always held a little torch for that boy haha that night is the reason i hate february so much, but thats a completely different thing and also not something im quite ready to discuss yet... anyways hanging with my friends was great! i miss them all so much. i kind of forgot how many friends i actually did have living back home, but i know for a fact that if i had stayed and hung out with them all the time then my life would be a complete mess. nothing against them at all, but i just know what would have happened because well, it happened once before and that wasnt a pretty picture at all.
so saturday my brother and i spent some quality time together and we went to the movies where a guy got up from his seat and passed out right in the middle of the theater... nope not a good thing, but the movie was great and we got free movie passes because of it! so thank you buddy for passing out and still being ok!!
sunday i went to the branch. it was weird being back and it was also so small!!! i forgot how small it actually was. it was nice seeing some familiar faces but at the same time, being there just dragged me down. i got to see some people who i was just overly excited to see... the schows!!! david and jessica are 2 of some of my most favorite people i know. they were the best part of that branch!! there were many times when they would just say something so simple and it would impact me in such a way i cant even explain it. they are great!! i love that entire family!!
Sunday evening i got to meat little miss olivia!! so precious and cute and i could just eat her up!! she was all smiles when i was there so it was just great! after meeting her, i babysat lyla who was just going to bed at the time but was just hilarious. the things that come out of her mouth just baffel me! i love that kid more than i can say.
The rest of my trip was me pretty much just hanging out with some friends and family and having a nice trip.
when i went home to visit i was scared that the same thing would happen to me that happened when i lived in edmonton... when i went home to visit while living in edmonton i got home sick, and to ad onto other things that were going on in my life, it made me move back home. this time around however, i was able to go home and come back and not feel the same way i did before. i still love calgary! and i am happy living here.
So also living here is my friend leah from back home and she works for a place called, Real Estate Council of Alberta. She informed me that a job opening had come up and that i should apply. i didnt and missed the cut off date for the applications. but i guess that the people they interviewed werent what they were looking for, and so leah told me to apply. so i did and within 5 days i had a phone interview, an in person interview, and then was offered the job not even 2 hours later.
Yes that is correct old navy is history!! and i am so happy!! i love my job and i get my evenings and weekends now. not that i have much of a life but i still get to go out if i want and i know what my days are going to be like. its great.
Now old navy tried to screw me over. i went in to get my final pay which would have 40hours of work plus whatever over time i did, plus my 30 hours of vacation pay out. well when i got the check it was only for my vacation pay out... so i was as little confused because well thats less than half of what i was supposed to get altogether. no assitant managers or store manager was there for me to talk to about it so i got the employee services number and called them... well of course they only work 8-5 and it was after 5 so i couldnt figure things out just yet. the next morning i emailed kurt (SM) to tell him what was going on and to let him know that i didnt believe it was a mistake on employee services end but on his end... on a side note, i hate that man and everyone but him and the ASM knew about it and on my last day he was a complete dill hole and i emailed our district manager, who i had worked with before in NS and i told her pretty much everything that was going on with him. well im pretty sure she told him because he started questioning the other managers asking if they knew that i had an issue with him.... well this started to make me think that he did it on purpose. then when i didnt hear back from the email it made me believe it even more. well i called employee services on my lunch and asked them what was going on and they looked everything up, and when they pulled up my file they said that whoever terminated me out of the system did not put in any of my working hours. i was not impressed at all because thats about 700$ before tax that i was missing. So i got a reference number and i texted Kurt and i literally told him that he had to call employee services before 5pm and get it all squared away and that i would be coming in after work and i wanted to get paid out of the till. his repsonse to that was ok. not a sorry for that or anything. which now made me believe it even more. then when i went in to pick up my money, he didnt come out of the office. he made the specialist give me the money and he was rude to me as well... whoch he had no right to be. Just think, if i hadnt have fought it, they would have kept my money.
well now i am at my new job and I LOVE IT! i am happy.
My life is pretty boring lately but i would rather be happy and bored than be annoyed/angry/upset/unhappy and bored which is what i was.
well speaking of working, im at work right now and i should finally post this. i've been writing it all week whenever i have a little down time.
hopefully i wont take a MILLION years to write again, and hopefully some time soon, maybe when my taxes are done i will FINALLY buy a computer!!
Here's to hoping!

Saturday, September 3, 2011

A quick post

So I'm actually posting from my iPod while lying on my bed that is actually a fouton. Why is my bed a fouton? Well that's because I moved to Calgary a little over a month ago and I can't afford a real bed but I do love my fouton. I will hopefully post pictures at some point of what my dear little room looks like. It's starting to look like a real room right now and I love it. Speaking of love I love Calgary! I forgot how much I did but I totally do. Now I'm not as sociable as Laura is but I'm ok with that. I have run into many people that i've known from over the years. I have run into a total of 2 ex's and one was ok nut the second was a little more awkward for me. I also like a boy.... SHOCKER! But that is a long long story that I'm not going to get into right now. I'm tired and well typing on my iPod isn't all it's cracked up yo be. I just thought that since it's been a long time I would give a quick update. I do miss the blogger world and I will hopefully be back soon and more consistantly!
Audios amigos!

Monday, April 4, 2011

updates, updates, UPDATES!

a quick update is needed i think, seeing that i havent blogged in a while, and well it is april. well.. as im sure you all have heard via laura, we went and saw Never Say Never for a 4th time.

sorry its kinda dark... i forgot to make them brighter before uploading them on here, and well im not doing it again because my computer is being stupid and freezing every few seconds. we also brought children this time so that we didnt look so lame.. epic fail! haha the girls wouldnt dance or sing with me. but the guys down the row sure did... whether they were making fun of me or not i appreciated their enthusiam! (the movie comes out may 14th!) so last weekend i spent 5 hours at my brothers house where lyla wanted to push the button on the camera and seeing that her arms arent that long, the picture is rather close! but i dont care because i love love LOVE my monkey! the reason behind my visit was so that my brother could get his wetsuit back and so that if needed, i was there to provide assistance. thankfully he did it all on his own! lyla wanted a picture of her and daddy wearing his wetsuit. i just love that little girl. she is my favorite person in the ENTIRE world! no offence to anyone else who i just adore, but this little monket won my heart the moment i saw her almost 3 years ago! needless to say, those 5 hours at my brothers house was the highlight of my parents being away. i never thought my brother and i could actually sit and have a conversation that didnt feel awkward or didnt feel as if i was just trying to fill the silence that always seems to follow us whenever we are alone. that saturday, my love for my brother grew leaps and bounds, and for that i am thankful!


onto more recent things... MY TAX RETURN CAME TODAY!! its not as much as last year, but hey, 1,258$ is enough to keep me a happy girl. the other thing that came today... a postcard all the way from wyoming, where cortney has been visiting. she has been traveling the states when she can and has been sending me postcards from all the places she has been and i just LOVE it. the other thing that i got today that has brought probably the BIGGEST smile to my face... EFY HAS REQUESTED MY PAPERWORK!!! that means, i fill them out, then they send me my contracts to accept!! i have been waiting for this for what seems like FOREVER! ive made some stupid, yet much needed, decisions this past year and i thought that because of those i wouldnt get accepted. but ive been praying real hard that i get it, and well, i have come to know that even though praying for something that seems so pointless to others, but is important to me, the lord will answer it to fit our needs... and well EFY means the world to me and i am so SO grateful for it! anyway, i need to get going because while my parents have been away i havent had a fire going, therefore my feet are about to fall off!!!

Friday, March 25, 2011

when the ink hits the page!

some times, when im full of thoughts and feelings, i take pen to paper and end up writing. some times i write peoms and other times i write lyrics. not everyone knows that about me. i actually have quite a bit of things that ive written. thats why my minor in school was gonna be creative writing. i just love it. but for the past while i havent been writing very much at all. i used to write all the time when i lived on my own, and i think its because i just had so much more going on with my life and i was just so full of emotions.
tonight, however, i was over flowing with this immense feeling of lonliness and i once again put pen to paper and i fell in love.
i wrote a song... theres no music to it, and i also dont think its any good. and its ok. this is my way of getting my feelings out.
i dont express myself very easily... just ask mark! haha
well i thought i would share it with you. i called it...

"suddenly"

[verse 1]
we said goodbye before our time was up
we said goodbye way too soon
it all eneded in a cloud of dust
but in the end it was me not you

[bridge]
i let you walk away when i should have said stop
i let you walk away, and with you, you took my heart!

[chorus]
suddenly i regret it all and suddenly i want to take it all back
suddenly you're everything i ever wanted
suddenly you are everything i lack!

[verse 2]
we had a fight, to add to the list of many
but this time it was bigger than the rest
although it was pointless, just like the others
it still left a whole in my chest.


[bridge]
i let you walk away when i should have said stop
i let you walk away, and with you, you took my heart!


[chorus]
suddenly i regret it all and suddenly i want to take it all back
suddenly you're everything i ever wanted
suddenly you are everything i lack!

[verse 3]
i want to look you in the eyes and say that im sorry
i want to hold you in my arms and make everything right
but i know i cant take back the words i said to you
i know that forever with us ended that night!


I let you walk away when i should have said stop
i let you walk away, and with you, you took my heart!

well... thats what came out tonight when the ink hit the page.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Happy week for me...

this week has been a pretty good week. now i dont normally admit to having one of those, but i will tell you the reasons why this week has just been oh so AWESOME!!!

1. i got my temple reccommend back!!!
2. havent had to work very much
3. my parents left today until the 11th of arpil!
4. i got paid today... even though i forgot that this was the last pay before the end of the month, which means student loan payments, i am quite happy with the amount that i got... even if i dont get to keep the majority of it.
5. i bribed laura with a movie date to see NEVER SAY NEVER one last time before they take it out of theatres.
6. i am off on friday now!
7. i have the house to myself and the car. (this kinda goes with #3, but its so great that it deserved its very own number)
so this week has been a great week even though its only wednesday!
i am happy!
hope you are all happy too!!!

Saturday, March 19, 2011

look away if you dont like gross toes

today was my short shift at work: 8:30 - 1:00. i was pretty happy that i would get to go to bed early because i really havent slept much at all this week.
well im at work, you know doing my thing, and i was asked to check out back in what we call our high density shelving units (HDS) for some shirts.
at the end of each HDS there are grid like panels that can have hooks on them. so on a few of them there are hooks holding up a bunch of callapsable metal rolling racks.
so to make a long story short, i moved the HDS (cause they move so that we can store product on a million different sides) and a rolling rack fell off its hook. i then proceed to put it back up but when i did it came crashing down with the sharper side smashing on my foot. OUCH!!
i look at my shoe and it has a circular indent from the rack because it fell a good 2 feet really fasta nd hard.
here are my thoughts when this moment happened:
1. $^%@&^
2. ohh the pain
3. my shoe has an indent!?
4. maybe i should take it off
5. dont think anythings wrong, but lets take off the sock just to make sure
6. OHHH BLOOD!
7. leave shoe and sock on floor and walk to the bandaids
8. too much pain. must sit down. hold toe tightly. make horse noises
9. walkie laura and ask her to come to the back.
so i wait for laura in pretty severe pain... for those of you who dont know me, my threshold for pain is rather weak haha especially if there is blood.
anyway i bandage it up and clean up the trail of blood i left behind me and get back to work.
so of course when i got home i had to take a picture so that i could document this for all the world to see...


so... thats my big toe. ugly i know.
the rack fell right where my cuttical is and cut through my shoe and sock without actually cutting either my shoe or sock. that just goes to show how hard it actually fell.
well... we think my toenail might fall off because of the fact that it probably disconnected my toenail right at the bottom.
if i lose my toe.. i will not be a happy camper at all.
so, thats the story of my toe.
off to bed i go!
good night!!!

ps- i was at angies tonight her their roommates cat is not used to her dogs because he just got here and well it was sitting in the chair with me and went to swat the dog and missed and got my toe pretty hard.
it is safe to say that any contact that is more than just a gentle graze of a sock, finger, or blanket, REALLY HURTS!!