A night with NO sleep

lets start off by saying that yesterday i had to get up at 5am to be at work for 6am...
after work my friend angie wanted to hang out because her boyfriend and our other friends boyfriend were going out down town. i said that i would hang and eventually agreed to sleep at her house because we both worked at the same time today.
last night, aka this morning, between the hours of 3:30 & 5am i got about 1 hour of sleep IF THAT!

only having that little sleep is not a good thing for me, but i am happy that i did and i am happy that i stayed with angie because our friends boyfriend tried to drive home drunk. it was a really hard thing to deal with and it was scary. he got behind the wheel and actually started to drive home with me chasing him down the street in the cold wearing nothing on my feet but now wet socks screaming his name. begging him to come back. he did eventually come back and was safe. he was safe, but he was stupid.
it makes me grateful for the fact that i dont need alcohol to have a fun night, and that i am smarter than him because i would never do something so stupid as to get behind the wheel of a car if i ever did.
i am grateful for my friends and the support they give me, because as some of you know, i do stupid things some times and dont always make the right choices. ive, on occasion, have had many errors in judgment, but my true friends have stuck by me no matter what i decided to do in the end, and i love them for it.
i am happy that my life has more meaning to it than a bunch of random drunken nights thrown together over the course of lets say 8 years.
yes, ok, i may not lead a very exciting life, and i may only just hang with my friends at their houses talking or just watching tv with the occasional shopping trip, or expedition to the movies, but i know that my life will be a better one because of the choices i make to not drink.
my life is mine and i have control over the choices i make, as do all of you,
and i choose to live happily in all my soberness. even if it means spending nights at home alone. at least i know im being smart and safe.

a blog FULL of complaints...

to start off i must state that i called my mom on friday and asked if she and my dad were going anywhere and if they were could they please drop off the car to me because it was cold and i didnt want to bus the hour and a half home... my mom said no!
this is a re-cap of how crappy my day was yesterday. yes i know that people dont like it when others complain, but thats too bad because i had a REALLY bad day yesterday and well, i wanted to write about it.
yesterday i had only 4 hours of sleep because i was having chest pain and i just couldnt seem to shake them and it kept me up for a while. i had to work at 11 which meant catching the bus at 9:30. i get upstairs to get something to drink before i left and my mom is sitting on the couch reading, and my dad is still in bed sleeping. i then realize that they dont have to work. i waited for my mom to say something like "hey take the car" but all she said was "i hope you have an umbrella!"
so from that im sure you can tell it was raining out. and well the rain doesnt bother me that much, as long as its not pouring out. when i stepped outside i noticed that it was doing a little more than just drizzling, but it wasnt too bad. i took the 10 steps from my door to the road and it started to rain cats and dogs and every other animal on noahs ark. to say the least, i was not impressed. here my mom was sitting in the living room and in my house you can hear and see the rain from where she was sitting and she didnt even move an inch (well if she did then it wasnt to come out and tell me she would drive me)
by the time i made it 5 houses down the street i was soaked. when i walked i could feel the water filling up in my shoes. my jeans were being dragged down because they were so wet.
well i get to the end of the street where i can see my bus stop (which is a ten minute walk away) and the bus drives by! so i then had to walk another 10 minutes to the other stop and wait in the rain for 7 minutes because there was no shelter, which i think is wrong. there should be a shelter at every stop because of days like these.
i get to work and i walk in and am PISSED BEYOND BELIEF!
i was cold and wet and mad and had been crying because i was so mad. i had to buy a new outfit. i got the cheapest thing i could get and that was a dress, a cardigan and flip flops. so i froze all day. the only good thing was, was that it only cost me 30$ but it was 30$ i didnt want to spend at all.
then while working this is what happened to me:
-> i said hello to a lady and she laughed in my face for no reason.
-> 2 ladys set a bunch of things down that they didnt want right in front of me so i turned, looked at them and went "excuse me!" as i picked up the things they so kindly dropped off.
-> i had to go to subway to buy a few gift cards for this thing we were doing and the girl let a million other people go before me when i was there first and played "guess which sub they got" so it took 10 times longer.
-> i waited in another line somewhere else for 15 minutes just for them to tell me they dont do giftcards.
-> i bit my lip rather hard
-> i burnt my hand washing them
im sure there were other things, but thats all i can remember. i was really mad yesterday and i didnt want to have to bus home. so my dear friend angie came and picked me up so that we could hang out afterwards. we thought about going to a movie, but we were too early for any of the shows so we went to walmart, where i almost bought a new tv because when im mad i like to spend money, but lucky for me no money was spent there.
we ended up going back to angies and just hanging out for a bit. it was the best part of my day.
now its sunday and i had to fight to have the car today so that i could go to church for sacrament and then go to work from 3-12... but i may not get out at 12, and i have to work at 9:30-6:30 tomorrow.... i cant wait for tomorrow to be over because i have tuesday off, and because tomorrow is the finale of the bachelor and laura and i have plans to watch it together... where i will eat tons and junk and get fat for the both of us... it brings on a whole new meaning to the saying "eating for two" haha
well heres to hoping today goes better than the last 2!

Old Friends...

the one thing i like about old friends, is that you can go months without talking and then pick up where you left of.
thats what this evening has been.
i decided to message this guy i have never met before, but used to write while he was on his mission. and i can say that i am glad that i did.
there's been some highs and lows of our friendship, but tonight right before he signed off facebook chat he goes:
Chris:"before i go i want to do something we used to do..."
Me: "what??"
Chris:"quotes!"
Me: "ohh haha"
Chris: " "what lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us" walt emerson."

i LOVE that quote!!!
just thought i would share it with all of you!

My Challenge...

ok, so i know that we dont do the whole lent thing, but i thought that this year i would give it a try.
yes thats right, i am giving something up for the 40 days.
and no, it is not junk food/sweets!
that is what everyone says the moment i say im doing this.
but what ive decided to give up, is....
BUYING MOVIES & CD'S & SEASONS
now this does not include going to the movies though.
for those of you who dont know me, entertainment, such as the ones forementioned, are pretty much my life!!!
i have a sick obsession.
i own approximately 300 movies, and 100 seasons.
so this is what im giving up!
wish me luck!!!!!


ok... onto other things.
my thoughts and prayers are with japan right now.
it sucks that they were hit with a tsunami.
tragedy's always make me sad. and whats even more sad, is that the west coast is on alert.
it worries me because it could happen here one day, and i live right by the water and i suck at swimming so i wouldnt survive.
people think that nothing bad can ever happen to us, but hey if the oceans plateletes shift enough it will cause an earthquake and could cause either a tsunami or a decent size tidal wave. (yes i somewhat listened in my geography class)
knowing what happened in japan made me think about all the things i am thankful for in my life.
it also made me worry about the ones i love because i know that i really cant do anything to protect them and it worries me that one day something might happen to them.

well.. i guess i should probably mention one other thing tonight.
today at work i hear over the walkies
"vanessa, theres a girl in the store with a justin bieber doll!"
i immediately start my hunt for set girl.
i find her.
she shows me the doll.
THE DOLL SINGS ONE LESS LONELY GIRL!
i contemplate going to Toys R Us to buy this doll.
i realize im crazy and should just ask for it for my birthday haha
so... consider this my first birthday item list.
you have until may 20th to buy it!!!

so... this is what i want.
the best part is the little girls grandma asked me what i thought of the biebs new hair cut.
yay for grandmas keeping up with the biebs!!!

well... happy friday to you all and wish me luck on working 7 days then off for 1 then work 4 then off 1 then who knows!!
i want to die!! haha but the money will be good!!

Night!!

I Think You've Guessed It...

So i've admitted that i have the bieber fever, and i have told laura that she was right when she said that i would love it.
I have already seen the movie twice, and am going for the third time tonight.
I can hear all you "non- beliebers" already saying "ARE YOU CRAZY!?"
And well, i am comfortable being weird and lame and possibly even stupid (acording to you that is), and all i have to say to you is
DON'T BOO IT TILL YOU DO IT!
Just to clarify though, im not all like oooohhhhh justin bieber, like the teeny boppers are. I just appreciate his talent and his drive. I admire him.
Quite frankly, im jealous.
No, not jealous of his fame (although that is a perk), I am jealous that he is so talented and able to perform infront of people.
I play the piano and im terrified to let people hear me play.

My word of advice to all you BELIEBERS out there...
Go get his CDS!
I DID!

Ok... onto other things that are not JB related...
As im sure you have all noticed, I have the little app thing that shows me where my readers come from, and I was SHOCKED today to see that there are people reading this from all over the world.
It makes me feel special and important haha
So Thank you too all those non canadian readers, and to my fellow canadians as well.
I dont write this for people to read but it does make it more worth my while.

Sick...

I woke up this morning and i have a cold... BOOO!
But this, however, isnt the type of sick i've been wanting to talk about...

I'VE GOT THE FEVER!!!!

Earlier this week i went to the movie i SWORE i would never go see.
I FELL IN LOVE!
if you look at lauras and my hoodies and you have seen the movie, then you may think that they look rather familiar...
yes, they are Justin Bieber hoodies.
yes, i also want to go get the gray one as well.
When the movie first started i really had no real attatchment to it. it just wasnt that appealing.
and then it showed him in concert singing One Time and it won be over.
I can say that that was the moment when it all changed for me haha
He is just too cute... and no I dont mean in the way all the little teeny boppers see him. He is just something else.
Scooter Braun and that other guy (who i cannot remember his name for the life of me but he rapped about Omaha mall) however, HELLO!
I am also going to NSN3D again on monday with my friend megan and i cannot wait.
me and the biebs are bff's, ive decided!
For all of you who think you are too good or cool to see this film and say that you wont ever see it...

NEVER SAY NEVER!!!

3.5 hours...

last night i had a total of 3.5 hours of sleep!
no that is not a typo, thats all i got.

i went out in the CRRRAAAAZZY weather to watch bachelor brad with laura and i was not disappointed.

i got hone around 11:30pm and had to get up at 5am.

i laid in bed for quite some time with many thoughts running through my head.

the main thought; do i regreat posting that last post!?
after lots of tossing and turning, i came to realize that i really dont care.

i write what i feel and well thats how i felt.

i just wish i had gotten more sleep though because today was brutal.

it is now 7:40pm and i am heading to my bed.
cross your fingers that i get more sleep tonight.

5am comes quick, but 3pm is slow to arrive!