"Everybody wants something, just a little more..."

Have you ever found yourself living in a fantasy?
That's been me these past few days.
I just can't quite seem to snap back into reality.
I wish that I could just pick which life I can lead, & lets just say...
It's for sure not the boring one that I'm living right now!!

"Tears Don't Fall They Crash Around Me..."

Do you ever cry yourself asleep because you feel like you're not good enough?
Do you ever wake up and tears are rolling down your face because you hate the feeling of being vulnerable?
Do you ever feel overwhelmed by the worry that lingers in your soul?
Do you ever just wish they would tell you it was all ok?

i'm baaacccckk! with a survey! (laura made me)

1. I've come to realize that my chest-size...
is perfect just the way it is... popping out of my shirt haha j/k

2. I've come to realize that my job...
gives me ZERO satisfaction

3. I've come to realize that when I'm driving...
i like to flirt with my 22 year old driving instructor!

4. I've come to realize that I need...
get rid of some clothes in my closet so that laura can have somethings new to wear

5. I've come to realize that I have lost...
space in my own room... thank jewel for graciously giving me ONE drawer!

6. I've come to realize that I hate it when...
people say that i told them information that i didnt even know in the first place so that their gossiping doesnt seem so bad.


7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk...
the dome has betrayed me haha

8. I've come to realize that money...
although i would like it to, does not grow on the tree in my backyard

9. I've come to realize that certain people...
need to come home... dad where you be yo?

10. I've come to realize that I'll always...
be a shopoholic.. thank you laura for pointing that out!

11. I've come to realize that my sibling(s)...
well josh is cool... jeremy i dont know about because i havent seen him in almost 3 years!

12. I've come to realize that my mom...
is just like my grandmother... this comment has made her cry her before. thank you josh on christmas eve!

13. I've come to realize that my cell phone...
is not another appendage

14. I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning...
that i have to go back to work on monday and i dont want to

15. I've come to realize last night before I went to sleep...
that nyquil is drowsy!

16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking...
laura made me do this survey and i am sorry

17. I've come to realize that my dad...
is still not home... and also not really funny but i laugh at his jokes anyway

18. I've come to realize that when I get on Facebook...
no one has written on my wall... but i still go on anyway.

19. I've come to realize that today…
is another day that i did not figure out how to slow down time

20. I've come to realize that tonight...
laura "needed" a friend and i had to leave a party because of it

21. I've come to realize that tomorrow...
i will have no friends at general conference for the first time ever

22. I've come to realize that I really want to...
go to utah to see corty and i guess my brother too

23. I've come to realize that my butt...
will never grow.. it will forever and always be nonexistant

24. I've come to realize that life...
needs to be more eventful

25. I've come to realize that this weekend...
is not a long enough break from the slavery

26. I've come to realize that marriage...
is very far off in the maybe distant future

27. I've come to realize that my friends...
dont love me that much or else they would have stayed here... with the exception of laura

28. I've come to realize that this year...
has produced ZERO relationships... not surprised considering my options

29. I've come to realize that my ex is...
very unsure how a first kiss should go... unless you like fish out of water sucking for air all over your face! his name rhymes with spark! which our relationship was lacking many of...

30. I've come to realize that maybe I should...
get a big girl job... any suggestions?

31. I've come to realize that I love...
pretty much all the same things i did when i was little

32. I've come to realize that I don't understand...
why nova scotia is on the other side of the country

33. I've come to realize my past...
should always stay in the past

34. I've come to realize that parties...
arent always a good idea

35. I've come to realize that I'm totally terrified...
of not being good enough.

see ya in another couple of months! hahaha

Mondays on Vaycay... not so bad!

yesterday, and today, have been pretty mellow... and Im ok with that.
yesterday all I did yesterday was get up, and hung out with carli for a bit. We watched high school musical... the first one. Its not as good as the second and third, but I still love it! It did make me think of laura and how much I miss her!!!! I cannot wait to see her when I get back... but the thought of going home is sad for me. This saturday will be the last time I see corty while on this trip and that makes me sad.
WEll, after HSM I went for an hour long walk. It was pretty nice, and I some how made it back to the house and didnt get lost. My knee afterwards was a little tight, but no pain!! YAY!!
After my walk I came home and watched some of a video from Drew and Tiffany's wedding. It was funny!!! I wish I could've been there thats for sure!!!
I also that night got to be apart of the gift opening, and it was pretty fun!!
Cort, Skyler and I just hung out in cortys room afterwards and talked about the campout that we are going to have on thursday night! Can't wait!!!

Here's a pic from the wedding!!!



Today clint, liz and carli left for pintcher creek, so I've been home alone all day. I sat outside and tanned for a bit, I watched "Sister Act 1" and got caught up on the latest episodes of big brother!
It's been nice just lounging around, but also kinda boring when there is no one to talk to at all and the fact that I'm not in my oun house makes things a little more difficult!!
Tonight, corty and I are going to go get drinks at Joeys restaurant and look pretty!! so it should be fun!!
Pictures from the photoshoot the other day are now posted on facebook!!
peace out home fry

Vacay update!

Saturday I went to my very first rugby game... AND I LOVED IT!! It was cortneys brother skylers game. After the game we went to capitol ex and went on some rides... got some henna and just had loads of fun. When we got back home he fell asleep on the couch and I fell asleep on the floor! I didnt sleep much the night before, and he had played all day so we were pooped!
When we woke up we watched FAME.. it was ok, odds of me buying it??? rather slim but with me you never know hahah!
After the movie we were roasting because it was super hot out, so we decided to sit in the little kiddie pool, then corty joined and carli as well! skyler was the only on with a swimsuit on so it was pretty funny! the funniest part was that we got really cold and we loaded the jacuzzi tub with bubbles and the 4 of us hopped on in! hahahaha there are pictures that will later be posted on facebook! people will judge but I dont care!
onto sunday... I got up got ready and went to church. It was once again super hot but theres no humidty so thats a plus!! after we got home and took a nap and had dinner, corty wanted to do a photo shoot of me... so we did. there are like 400 pics and they will be posted soon!!
but for right now heres a little sneek peek!!



enjoy!!!

Day 3: Blind Date Disaster!

Day 3 brought on some interesting things thats for sure. I got to watch carli wash their dog dolly.. and well dolly did not enjoy that at all! it made for a good laugh thats for sure!
well, on to the date disater.. cort set me up with some guy and she was going to go with his friend. well the friend, robbie, showed up to get us and well my date brock wasnt off work yet so he was going to meet us at the party... well he came to the party but that girl who hes kinda dating was there as well.. so I got an introduction and that was about it! I didnt even leave with him. I left with other friends and we hung out and had some fun. I forgot how much I loved it here and just going to parties and hanging out with friends like this. not that I dont like hanging with friends back home, but lets face it, I dont have very many friends back home who will go out and go to parties and do stupid random things.
So the blind date was a disaster but it turned out better as the night went on and I got to see other people I havent seen yet. I didnt get home until 3am and fell asleep at 4am and got up at 6am. surprisingly Im not even tired.
Today I am going to skylers rugby game and then going to capital ex and then to the taste of edmonton. cant wait to see how this pans out... I will keep you updated!
Pics are on facebook!
peace out home slice!

REUNITED!!

On Wednesday, July 21st, 2010 at 12:30pm mountain standard time, I Vanessa was reunited with my bestest friend of all time after 2 and a half years! It was an awesome reunion in the edmonton international airport.
Let me start back where the story begins... about 4 months ago I bought my plane ticket, round trip for 26 days, for 407$ with tax! so that was pretty awesome! from that point the countdown began, and people thought I was crazy for counting down so soon when I still had 4 months to go. but I didnt care at all! I was ubber excited to see cortney after sooo long!
Well the 4 months went by pretty quickly, although at the time it didnt seem that time was moving at all.
Tuesday night I went to a party for a friend of mine who I work with named tresa whos from ireland and was going back there soon. There were a lot of co-workers there and well yes some were drinking, and some were not... I clearly was apart of the not drinking crew... but heres the thing... I get a little strange when people around me are drinking, like I get more hyper for some reason, and do strange things... like KISS A BOY WHO I WORK WITH! Heres the other thing... I'm his supervisor.... WOOPS!
Once I got home I immediately started to pack, because I hadnt done that yet and was leaving at 6:30am for the airport. so I packed and then I was on the computer where I ended up talking for hours with james baker, and there ended up being a proposal and a kiss via internet hahaha it was rather interesting thats for sure... I'm not complaining in any way hahaha he's cute!
Well I slept for about an hour after being up for 23 hours, and then headed to the airport where the check in lady was sooooo slow and stupid that my dad was waiting for me to check in, even though I told him to leave multiple times, got a parking ticket for parking ilegally! yup! barry did a no no at the airport!
so I took off and for the first hour and a half I had no one sitting next to me, and I prayed that when we stopped in montreal to pick up more passengers that I would still be sitting alone... NOPE! I got stuck next to a old french married couple who kept giving me dirty looks!! I think it was because I was next to the window and they werent!
I did fall asleep on the plane for a bit... with my mouth wide open I might add... I woke myself up a few times because my mouth got dry and I couldnt breathe! haha I know, it was pretty attractive!
So we finally land in edmonton, and we are on time and we go to get off the plane but for some reason no one is vacating the area... we wait and we wait and then 20 minutes later the flight attendant says over the PA system "sorry for the wait, but the customer service representative is having some difficulties connecting the plane to the gate." SERIOUSLY!!! isnt that youre job, and havent you done it like a 1000 times already! freak!! I was sooo not impressed! mostly because I had to pee really bad!
so I got off the plane and went to the bathroom and then practically ran down the stairs, and through the rather slow automatic doors (I helped open them because they were sooooo slow) it was like a scene straight out of the movies where one person dropps their luggage and runs to the person running at them and give each other the biggest hug of all time!!!! it was awesome!!! Im sooo happy I get to spend time with my best friend!!!
DAY 1: we went to ikea for lunch when I got off the plane, and then corty had to go back to work, so we dropped her off, and then I went back to their place and fell asleep from 3pm-9pm! I was sleepy! haha we then went to the movies with cortys brother skyler. we saw inception! it was pretty good. at first I was a little bored with it, but then I started to really enjoy it. I dont think its as amazing as people are saying, but its still pretty cool and good... I might buy it one day! haha after the movie we came back home and it was 1am but we talked for about an hour and then went to sleep.
DAY 2: corty went to work and I went shopping with sheila! lets just say I spent more than I thought I would, but when its only 5% tax vs 15% youve gotta take advantage. plus there are stores here that we dont have back home so I had to buy things. but my shopping days are done! I seriously spent 5 hours at the mall... it was pretty crazy!
corty came and got me from the mall and then we went home and got ready to hang out with skyler and shaun (the firefighter shes sorta seeing) we went to dinner which was a scene all on its own! it was pretty awesome! we came home and went to sleep after.
today is day 3 and so far Ive gotten woken up with a text from my friend taylor saying that shes eating my ice cream cake that I left at work, and I said ok and now thats all I want! Its only 9:30am here and I am wide awake and ready for the day to begin. So far I dont have plans until tonight when Im going on a date. HOLLA! haha

during this whole thing though, and for the past few weeks Ive really missed my best friend laura! I cannot wait to see her the day I get back!! I love her!

until next time, and Im sure while Im here there will be a next time, audios!